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kunlun
March 2009 
Gold-leafed Scalp
Posted on Mar 7th, 2007
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sadhaka
sadhaka
Two nights ago I was having trouble sleeping. I decided to focus as much as possible on AB and let their light fill me. I remember a pushing sensation from inside my head as if it were filling up and expanding. I remember having visions of myself with an almost pained expression of ecstatic communion on my face, an expression I doubt I've ever had and certainly have never seen. The energy pushed and pushed, up and up, till finally my skull was filled to the apex. Then something weird happened.
I remember 'seeing' the energy spill out around the top of my skull to form a cap of little golden plates. It was right against my skin, almost metalic, and it both pulled energy upward from my body to the very limit of my head and kept outside forces at bay. I also had the sensation that the very middle of my skull was now elevated enough to receive light without clogging it up or acting as a filter. It felt like there was a little golden gravity well in the middle of my skull.
I asked that this experience be permanent, that I be given regular access to the energies I was experiencing and the paths that were now open. Eventually the energy subsided and I fell asleep
Waking up later to use the restroom, I had the strangest notion that a huge part of my childhood fears was dying. Something incredibly strange in my psyche that has to do with orange-red hair and dolls. I think my fear is a subconscious rejection of certain innate qualities that I was taught to supress. MORE LATER.
I remember 'seeing' the energy spill out around the top of my skull to form a cap of little golden plates. It was right against my skin, almost metalic, and it both pulled energy upward from my body to the very limit of my head and kept outside forces at bay. I also had the sensation that the very middle of my skull was now elevated enough to receive light without clogging it up or acting as a filter. It felt like there was a little golden gravity well in the middle of my skull.
I asked that this experience be permanent, that I be given regular access to the energies I was experiencing and the paths that were now open. Eventually the energy subsided and I fell asleep
Waking up later to use the restroom, I had the strangest notion that a huge part of my childhood fears was dying. Something incredibly strange in my psyche that has to do with orange-red hair and dolls. I think my fear is a subconscious rejection of certain innate qualities that I was taught to supress. MORE LATER.
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