No More Doors

    What follows is a transcript of a recording I made yesterday after being absolutely pounded flat by shamanesses in the Kunlun line. I opened some door and they drove a tractor through it. But it was a good tractor. Anyway, the text doesn't do justice to how intense this experience was, so if any of my friends out there want to hear it, I will certainly let you. Be warned it's a little terrifying and sounds like I'm either having a seisure or getting a really good blow job. In fact it was much better than either. ;-)

    Where I use the marker (GASP!) here, I'm actually gasping in the middle of saying the word that precedes the (GASP!) marker.  On the recording it sounds very sexual in nature, as I said.  In fact it was not sexual in nature; the energy was very intense and clear, very spiritual, feminine, and comforting, but so intense that I couldn't control it to speak at times. Oftentimes when I would imagine one of the visualizations I had seen, I would get another jolt of spiritual energy and that would cause me to gasp in the middle of a word again. Try to think of the (GASP!) marker as a wordgasm. ;-)

    Some of the words are omitted to protect the innocent. (The only innocent being me.) Remember you can hear the recording if you want, and please bare with the transcript for a while because it is worth it. It just takes a bit to get going. Thanks, guys.


(VOICE SOUNDS TIRED, LOW, SLOW AND LABRORED)
    Oh, goodness.  5:45 PM, June 25th.  No, fourth.  (PAUSE)   I didn't mean to get ___.  And I practiced a lot of Kunlun today.  Had some very intense experiences.  Feeling kind of mala -- a kind of malaise about the practice, even though it was quite extraordinary.  I'm not sure why.  I guess it's because I have to deal with everyday things as well, and it's difficult for me to integrate the two. 

    But (I) did get ___ because (I) got ___ for B.  And S. always wants to ___, so I was packing a ___ before I knew what was going on.  Then he left.  And I felt like I should energize the ___. (What he left.)  And I also think his lighter is here.  So I started to. (Energize his items.)

(Here's where the recording get interesting.)
    Had an interesting set of visual (GASP!) Oh, God -- visualizations, very powerful(VOICE HIGHER, FULLER) very balanced women, umm -- very symmetrical (GASP!)(GASP!) Long black hair!  Hah.  And she's in the Kunlun position.  (GASP!)  And her left hand is just a very -- thin! (GASP!) Small! (GASP!)  Powerful! (GASP!) Ah (GASP!) hah.  About the size of a marble. (GASP!) Blinding white light.  (HEAVY BREATHING)

    Oh. (SIGH)  And the same on her (GASP!) -- her right hand, above -- whoa.  Oh, geez.  Excuse me.  One moment.  (Sharp in breath)(GASP!)  Whoa. Kay.  Focus, focus, focus. 

(SIGH)(LONG PAUSE)  Obsidian.  Obsidian Aka Dua. (Here I started generating the Obsidian Aka Dua because it's incredibly grounding.)

    (GASP!)  Obsidian.  (LONG PAUSE)(VOICE NORMAL)  Anyway, same visualization over and over.  (GASP!)  The more I think about it, the more cartoony she becomes, but she was very -- powerful!  She's still very powerful, obviously.  You can tell from this crazy recording.  I hope it's recording.  I really do.  If it's not I'll be very upset.  Hello? (LOUD)  Oh, thank God.  (SIGH)

    Okay.  Whew.  And just kept getting that visualization over and over and had some interesting experiences.  Did one position -- wait a second.  I did the five elements Qigong before I did the cleansing of the ___ -- in front of my obsidian sphere, I might add -- and it was very interesting, but then I just started getting lost in the stoniness and I stopped.  Then I went over to cleanse the ___.  And then all the other visualizations started happening.

 Then I was hit by -- wait, no.  The first position, I saw Max do it at the seminar.  I can't remember why.  It doesn't feel right in my hands right now.  But this is -- I'm pretty sure what was -- what it looks like.  It was just hands folded except for middle and ring finger on both hands touching, flat, you know what I mean?  And the -- like this, if I'm right-handed, then my left hand's pinkie is on the bottom, and my right hand's thumb is over the left crossing it.  And the middle and index fingers are touching flatly.

    And I think there was some mention of a sword, and it was -- I don't know, I guess the bliss is raised (GASP!) And it's all the way up to the (GASP!) -- crown chakra, and he kind of used it as a sword.  Not in a -- yang kind of way, but it's just suddenly -- (GASP!) -- in the middle of the air and it just heavily falls down with absolutely no effort. 

    And, you know, that took me a couple places and raised my energy and everything and then I was hit by something.  I felt kind of like it was overload, and so I was kind of pushed back into the chair, into the couch, by the rainbow crochet blanket, and fell back and felt very grounded and good even though my Dantian was burning a little bit and -- felt -- well, actually I ate a very very very spicy lunch.  And that's been hurting.  Oops.  Finish this later.

(At this point Russell was walking in the door and I had to get my whits about me and greet him. You have no idea how difficult that was. Because I was still being opened and bombarded with energy, I told him that I had been doing some very intense energy work and I was still being blasted with a lot of energy, so beware.)