My First Article

Hands off my Deeksha!

Coming to Grips with Free Energy for Enlightenment

        The Oneness Deeksha movement has been growing in popularity and intensity for some time, and many people – including myself – have been greatly influenced by the experience of receiving Deeksha. People from all over the world have been attracted to this “energy of enlightenment,” and very consistently people report the experience of peace, bliss, fulfillment, and some have even become fully awakened as a result of undergoing the 21-Day Oneness Process in the presence of avatars Amma and Bhagavan.

       But there is also a lot of controversy surrounding the Oneness organization itself, especially on the web. Some people have decried the entire organization as fraudulent, and there are several eerie articles circulating out there describing how people may have had psychotic breakdowns from using Deeksha too much or vilifying Ammabhagavan as charlatans and greedy gurus.

       One of the other controversies surrounding this movement is the fact that unless you've been to Golden City, India, and undergone the 21-Day process, you're not “allowed” to call any energy you may channel Oneness Deeksha. I would never presume to call the energy I channel Oneness Deeksha – in fact I call it Enlightenment Diksha just to be careful – though through my personal experience, I can assure you it is the same; we all have unlimited potential, and all energy originates from the same Source. It is free energy for enlightenment.

       In this article I hope to clear up some of the mystery surrounding the movement by relating my personal experience with Deeksha as a neutral party, that is, someone who has received Deeksha and channeled Deeksha but has not personally attended the 21-Day Process at Oneness University.

What's the Deal with Bliss?

        What's the big deal with “bliss,” anyway? The main purpose of so called “bliss practices” like Deeksha is to instill within the practitioner the sense that there is no separation between You and the outside world. It works to create a permanent brain change and so deals almost completely with the mind of the practitioner. Giving Deeksha, receiving Deeksha... within this enlightened energy, it's all the same. Outside blends with inside, mind with body, laughter with sorrow, and enlightenment is realized – at least for a short while – in the apprehension of nonduality; you and I and she are the same, we are all One, there is no inside, there is no outside, that vase is god is war is abundance is crime is tears is joy is love is sex is bliss is god. Oneness.

       So what good does that do? I'll be the first to say, Not a whole lot if one resists the flow of this energy into everyday life: God washing the dishes. God playing with the children. God mowing the lawn. God paying the taxes. I've had my fair share of difficulties with this very thing. After a tremendous session of blissful practice, I'd find myself barely able to touch anything without keeling over at its incredible beauty. I'd walk into the kitchen and grasp the counter, nearly melting into it for its simple splendor, and then try to wash the dishes without getting caught up in the madness of the mundane act itself. Soon my ego would intercede with its evil agenda: Don't let go of your bliss! Hoard it with every fiber of your being! Don't let it leak!

       Needless to say this makes washing dishes incredibly difficult, not because you're melting into the dishes and laughing hysterically at the ridiculouness of duality(although that happens.) It's difficult because when you try to hold on to your bliss, you resist the bliss of existence itself. So without awareness training, without learning to surrender to the flow of what seems like a mundane, dual, physical existence, bliss practices can be troublesome.

        Never forget that bliss is for everyone because bliss is everyone. It may sound inherently selfish in the end, but the more energy you give(or allow to flow through you), the more energy you receive, and the more bliss will come into your life and the lives around you. It's a good thing.

        Another point to make is that “using” Deeksha may be dangerous as an end in itself. People talk about getting “blissed out” all the time now, and bliss has, for some, replaced the old addictions we've all struggled with in the past. Bliss has become a drug to some people, and that is not the intention if these intensely ego shattering, life changing practices. The mere fact that we can experience bliss as something separate from ourselves in these ever-changing times calls attention to the fact that we need to be careful not to hoard it as something precious, material, and fading. Bliss is here to teach us something, to remind us of the eternal, blissful feeling of nonduality that is the seat of all creation. If we can learn to carry bliss over into our hectic lives, fantastic.

My Introduction to Deeksha

        Now that we've cleared up what Deeksha and bliss do in a practical way, I'd like to tell you how it came into my life. The first time I received Deeksha was from a healer friend who had recently undergone the Oneness Process. I wasn't accustomed to the reverent pomp with which he went about the ceremony – myself being a lone practitioner with a bent toward the “Nothing is true, Everything is allowed” attitude of Kaos magicians and Discordians – and admittedly, I was a little disappointed in the actual experience itself; I didn't really feel anything, and there was no noticeable change afterward. At the end of the session, my friend offered us a tiny image of Ammabhagavan to take home. Being as I am fully willing to invest my time and energy in anything I think might work eventually, I took two.

        At that time I was working with Reiki and the Aka Dua, chanting my own personal mantras in my own personal language, attempting glossolalia to open myself up to the Logos, firing magical intentions into the ether without much ritualistic ado, and sitting back and waiting for results. I wasn't involved in any “bliss practice,” and I wasn't at all familiar with the feeling of bliss.

        Several months later my friend opened up his own healing and meditation center in downtown Hollywood, and my boyfriend and I were present at the dedication. At one point while preparing incense and washing the feet of the divine – another ritual I found to be a little over the top – he said something like, “The energy is really strong in here!” and keeled over in uncontrollable laughter and had to have his partner finish what he was doing. I thought for a moment he may just be totally crazy, but I went along with everything just the same; I interested in bliss and Deeksha, and his personal experience with the Oneness movement had been entirely positive.

        Ever since I “lost my faith” as a teenager, I've struggled to balance the liberating notion that God and I are One with the instinct to fall on the floor and prostrate myself in fearful, tearful, pitiful reverence to that which I deem “holy,” which in a Christian context can be just another word for “scary.” So in the midst of a regular Hindu style ceremony with fire and incense, wondering whether this was all bogus or whether I'm going to have a transcendent experience, I decide to kneel on the floor and put my hands in the prayer position. Of course a few minutes later, my back hurts like hell because I don't kneel often, but I'm unwilling to move to make myself more comfortable because I don't want to interrupt the ceremony.

        Oh, the things I do for Jesus.

        As my friend and another Deeksha giver went around the room in a circle so that each of us received Deeksha twice, once from each of them, some people started laughing. First it was one person, then another, then another, so much so that I figured they were just doing it to fit in. But a few seconds after my friend came and put his hands on me, I felt this strange giddiness gurgle around my belly, and suddenly I found myself chuckling out loud for no apparent reason. My friend laughed with me, and as the laughter became sort of distracting, he changed the position of his hands on my head, and the quality of the energy changed substantially to something much more awe-instilling, as though I was about to break through to another realm of perception.

       Afterwards, I remember driving home with my boyfriend, and we both had this unstated, childlike satisfaction to everything we said and joked about. It was very refreshing, and it was certainly enough to keep me interested and coming back for more.

       At this event my friend revealed that Ammabhagavan had made Deeksha available to everyone. I thought that statement was odd because he had paid $5000 to go through the 21-Day process and become a Deeksha giver. Still he said that all we had to do was touch their image and petition them for Deeksha energy, and it would come through. I was doubtful.

       So while trying to come to grips with my fuck-it-all, Discordian attitude on one side and my tremble-before-the-divine attitude I'd been raised with, I started standing in front of Ammabhagavan's image, folding my hands in the prayer position, and asking them for their blessing. In my own way, I was attempting to bridge the practicality of Kaos magic and self-created spiritual paradigms with what I perceived to be a system outside, above, and beyond myself, something holy and “untouchable.” And even if I did feel something, I was so sure that what I was doing wasn't completely “proper” or “allowed” in the context of the Oneness movement or in the eyes of Amma and Bhagavan themselves that I never conisdered it true Deeksha.

        But one day as I was walking away from their tiny image on my bookshelf, I couldn't take more than two steps before I fell on floor in almost painful laughter. It was like everything in my head and outside my head merged in crazy, blissful union, and it was fucking hilarious.

        Here is my journal entry from that day:

        “Yesterday... I asked Ammabhagavan to give me Deeksha... As I was trying to write something in my diary, I first felt a tremendous gravity from below... then an energy that raised my head upward slightly. I couldn’t believe the power of what I was feeling. I tried to grasp it and tried to direct it... then at the point I finally gave up, I burst into divine laughter. I couldn’t stop for a while and for a while it was so strong nothing was even coming out of my mouth; I was just reeling in this energy.” – Personal Journal, 2-08-08

        Imagine being completely drunk on the funniest thing you've ever heard in your life: That's Deeksha. I was so stunned by this experience that I continued this practice regularly. Still I never considered it “true” Deeksha; I wasn't receiving it from a true Deeksha giver, so how could it be?

My Deeksha Discovery:

       In continuing to open myself to the energy of the Source through a multitude of wonderful practices, I've come farther faster than I ever thought possible. I've become so open that I've been able to channel any kind of energy I choose. It's all a matter of surrender.

        So recently, being the crazy freak that I am and being quite familiar with the unique nature and feeling of Deeksha energy, I thought, “I wonder if I can channel Deeksha,” and decided to give it a go. This was the result:

       "I think I'm gonna explode... I can channel Deeksha. I'd never presume to call myself a Deeksha giver; I haven't been through the process. But it's the same basic energy. I've felt it before enough times to recognize it....” – Personal Journal, 2-27-09

        I was huddled over my computer in a state of staggering bliss, trying not to laugh out loud at the ridiculous nature of my keyboard. I immediately started to grapple with the idea that I could indeed channel Deeksha without an intermediary! It nagged and nagged at me until I found this article:

       “Deeksha was meant to be universal, and truly is. Bhagavan, as an aspect of the Kalki avatar, brought it to humanity, but it was never to be made exclusive to those initiated at Oneness University.

       "Bhagavan knew this, and made statements to this effect just after Deeksha initiation began. This is well documented. Certain elements within the organization assigned exclusivity of the “golden ball” to Bhagavan as the absolute source, so they might have control over it and thus be able to dictate its use and build a structure around it, ostensibly to support it. The unresolved ‘”shadow issues” around power, control (dominance) and greed sprouted into the hierarchical organization that now exists. We do not wish to single out Oneness University and those involved in it, as this has occurred in virtually every large organization during this cycle, and is a deeply engraved aspect of the collective unconscious “shadow.” – Thoth on Ilahinur, Received by Barry Martin Snyder, www.luminousself.com

        That sums up exactly the intuition I had been having about the Deeksha movement, and it put to rest my fears in approaching Ammabhagavan to receive Deeksha energy by myself. I do believe that they are enlightened beings, and as such, they don't hoard energy and they are not jealous for energy. The good work they've done for humanity should truly speak for itself. I also believe that if they had such “bad karma” as to be jealous for Deeksha, the core of this movement would have disintegrated long ago.

Conclusion:

        It's been close to a month since I learned of this incredible gift. I have been making Deeksha energy a part of my life ever since. I've felt it shift things in dramatic ways, and I'm finally realizing the true potential we all have as beings of light. We are prisms refracting god's light in infinite variations.

       I still feel I can't offer people “Oneness Deeksha,” and I'm sure I never will. I would never presume to belittle the 21-Day Process so many people have gone through to open up to this miracle of the Divine. Heck, I'd still give an arm and a leg to go through the Oneness Process myself! But I am doing my own work, opening up in my own ways, and I've come to realize that Deeksha energy is free to everyone. It is free energy for enlightenment.

       I still thank Ammabhagavan for bringing this energy into the world, but above all, I thank the Source. I implore you to invite this energy into your mind, heart, and body for yourself. If you're sensitive to energy, you will feel something right away. If you're not, it might take longer, but you will begin to feel a head change. Eventually it will become dramatic like the phenomena I describe. Once you recognize this energy's signature, you will be able to channel this energy anywhere, anytime

        Anyone can channel anything. It's just a matter of tuning in. Once you know the channel, you can return to it again and again. I am very grateful to Ammabhagavan for bringing this energy into the world. Now it is up to us to spread it around.

~~ Copyright March 2009, M. H. Jenner